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Today is a History for me and my family . Especially for my bro .. 29/11/09

2009-11-29T09:57:00.000-08:00

Today . My bro lost his Best friend . I'm so sorry to hear that .

The story goes like this . Bill Kaulitz kissed ME! . haha . NO larr . ok ok . serious .

Me, Flo and my eldest sis Sylvia which i always call her Yong. Her nickname in our family .

Shasta ( Yong' s daughter ) had a party at KFC in Boulevard . Kinda bored but wat to do . need to accompany Shasta . She's small ..

there we are . eating KFC's food.. then...

A msg received from my dad . Thru a phone . not email or "poslaju" haha.. *sempat!*

it says there.. '' Ambrose dah meninggal '' means '' Ambrose is gone '' ..

when my sis read that msg, she cried in front of ppl . not cry like '' HUAHUAHUAHUA! '' but her eyes like sooooooo damn red . Yea.. of coz tears.. me n flo dunno what happened until she show us the msg . and i was like '' DAMN ! is it ?! '' .. then flo said '' just this morning Ambrose msg Jason (my bro) while he's in the hospital ''

then Yong called Shasta to eat quickly until she chocked ! no laa.. heeee.. a mom would never do that to her kid . ngek ! if got mental disorder.. i can accept that . :)

then Shasta said why . Then i replied quickly '' Don't ask too many question . Just finish ur food . ''

then while we're waiting for Shasta to finish her food.. we talking about how Ambrose can '' gp '' that fast . :( he's still young . just 19 . have a bright future . nice kid . good to our family . many lerhh .

we plan to go to the hospital but we need to pick up my dad and mom at home coz they dun have transport to go to the hospital . so . we went to our house n saw my bro crying . nevah in my life i saw a man crying like that ! pity him . :(

there we are . at the mortuary . actually i dun wanna go in the mortuary . it's scary , cold and full of crying people . yeaaa . i gave Ambrose the last respect . i cant tell u the look on his face. he look so stiff . huhu . all this while he was a happy-go-lucky type of guy . but now . there are no more Ambrose Gramong . T.T

His mom talked to my mom about Ambrose . But i was too busy crying and looking at a good looking boy . *sempat!* yea laa . my mom said to me that he had an heart attack . the coming out of his eyes, his nose, his mouth ... *crying* .

when i saw the coffin van coming . i was feeling so chilled . sum kinda like wind . but i dun care tat time . i was concentrating the people who was carrying the coffin in to the van . Full of crying people . i felt like i was in a movie .

the van went off to Pakan, Sarikei . People dismissed . Talking about our late Ambrose's tragic death . My bro and his friend plus their lecturer was talking about their memories with late Ambrose . Me and my family didn't talk to each other for quiet a while . I was still crying . They didn't noticed . Thank god .

~ i KNOW some part u didn't understand . please comment me . ~

REST IN PEACE AMBROSE GRAMONG . WE'LL PRAY FOR YOUR SOUL . WE KNOW YOU'RE IN THE BETTER PLACE .

I FORGIVE THEM . I LOVE THEM MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF . I LOVE U MUMMY AND DADDY !

2009-11-29T09:54:00.000-08:00

I'M SO SORRY FOR WHAT I'VE DONE , WHAT I'VE SAID ABOUT THEM . I wish i can take back all of my words . :(

Amen . :)

I HATE THEM !!!

2009-11-19T23:44:00.000-08:00

I'M soooooo freakin pissed wif my parents !!!!!!!!!
arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

i wanna go out with my frens to spring but .... this is my mom's chapter . .

scene : living room . dad on the couch . mom sumwer around the house . bros waiting for me outside .

my dad asked me if sumone gonna sponsore me . i said " malu la ppl wan to spon me . i dun wan ppl spon me all the time " . suddenly he looked shocked . " i just hve RMxxx only ahh " .. i felt soooo frustrated . then i saw my dad went to the kitchen n whisper sumthing to my mom's ear . I KNOW IT'S A BIGGGGGG MISTAKE !

my mom looked n me wif a "lion's" face . i just ask for RM10 laaaa . i saw my mom say sumthing to my dad back.. and...she said.. " YOU BETTER DONT GO ! I DUN WANNA GIVE U ANY MONEY ! "

dun even wanna give me RM10 ?!
unbelievable!!!!!! FUCK !
mom said " everyweek u go out wif ur frens ! not enough for u ?! last week i gave u RM1o . wer is it ? " and blablabla . . . . *talktalktalk*
and i kept silent . = =" but actually i was swearing in my mind . i almost said it out loud but i know i will kena bomb ! OMG !! SO ANNOYING .

then i went to my room.. BANG the door and locked it . i heard my mom shouting but i dun give a damn what she's saying . well , tats me . if argue wif any of my family members . sure i go to room n bang the door . idc the door ran down o wat . not my MONEY ! = ="

then.. blablablablabla.. i heard my mom said " oh , my medicine finished . need to go to clinic to fill it back . "

she knocked my door so many time and shouted " OPEN IT UP !! " i slept bha tat time . i forced myself to wake up and open the door . heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. annoying . if u heard my mom's voice sure u know how i feel ! = ="

then she 'lectured' me when i was on bed . " there's reasons why i dun wan u to go out . if u have ur own children (omg! she can predict the future!) u will know how i feel . " and on n on n on .

make me feel guilty . D:

ahhhhhhhhh . if i got time i'll update it .
i'm so not in the mood now .

MODEL SISTAHH!!

2009-11-09T06:53:00.000-08:00

SYLVIA PARVEEN SONDRA

my sis.. hehehe.. i love her!!!

.:.ESTEE LAUDER PHOTOSHOT.:.

so bored...

2009-11-07T07:44:00.000-08:00

freaking bored rite now..
wanna kill myself.. OH NO! BETTER DON'T. I NOT YET GET MARRIED!
HAHA!
MENDA, MENDA, MENDA.. I'm so sorry to hear about "him"..
i know.. HE'S CHANGING DRAMATICALLY!
when i heard it from u .. i was like. "OMFG!" haha..
his 2nd laupo.. damn mann!!! sooo damn (f)ugly!
haha..
F-FUCKING!
haha... how can he say.. "LOYAL TO YOU"..
WTF?!?!?! freakin LIAR!

my sis told me before. but i din believe it..
GAWD! PITY MENDA..
T.T

ah well. Like Menda said to me.. "I'M STILL YOUNG! I CAN STILL FUCK WIF BOYS! NOT ONLY HIM! "

hehehehehe.. the fucking part is my part.. hahahahaha! XD

I WAS JUST KIDDING LA STEVE! = ="

2009-11-06T23:14:00.000-08:00

there's a lame boy name Stevenson Racha.. jkjkjkjk!
He'll be my date tmrw.. = ="
haha.. BUT! wait...
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oh! that Wednesday I told Steve and almost all of my friends that I'm going to "Korea" haha..
then.. The next day.. I didn't go to school..

(p/s.. Loretta, Ho Chia Wun and 2 or 3 of my friends know that I was trying to prank Steve.. but Amanda Hannah, Stevenson, Ryan Nepol DOESN'T KNOW THAT I'M LYING!) *evil laugh*

Actually I didn't go to school is because.. SHOULD I LIST IT?! okay okay..
--> NOTHING TO DO IN CLASS!
-->LAZY-ASS..
--> "EARLY-HOLIDAY" XD
-->BORED GO TO SCHOOL FOR 10 MONTHS!
and more larh! grrrrr..

I love it when Steve believes me.. But I felt so sorry for him.. I lied to my BESTFRIEND!
T.T

but , anyway.. WHO CARES?! haha.. still loving it.. :D
I didn't go to school on Thursday. and on Friday, I go lahh! duhh..

THEN THE STORIES GO ON AND ON AND ON... :) (lazy and sleepy)

I'M A LAZY-ASS.. so, gonna update everytime i want.. :)

TOMORROW IS THE BIG DAY! not really big..it's just an ordinary sunday.. = ="

2009-11-06T22:49:00.000-08:00

hrmm.. tmrw...hope Amanda Hannah's plan goin well!
but.. i think i wont go.. I SPENT ALL OF MY MONEY ALREADY! how can i go to tHe Spring with them?
huhu... Stevenson Racha will be my date..
not a real date.. but a 'date'.. DO U KNOW WHAT I MEAN?!
haha..
there'll be like 30+ monkeys that will be joining us to the shopping mall..
zzz..
pity Amanda Lim... she's in Miri now.. she cant join us for tmrw... T.T
i miss YOU MENDA!
huhuhu..
all of them got their own real date.. ONLY ME(!) doesn't have one..
yeaa.. i got but.. STEVE IS FAKE!
haha..

Val and Manda keep on arguing about watching either Pandorum or Jennifer's Body...
all the boys wanna watch Jennifer's Body.. wanna know why? IT'S SO OBVIOUS ALL THE BOYS WANNA SEE THE BODY OF JENNIFER.. haha.. everyone knows that Megan Fox is smokin' hot.. haha!
The girls wanna watch Pandorum.. For me, i can watch anything.. STILL A MOVIE TOO RITE?

Steve and Melvin keep on talking about Jennifer's Body movie.. = =" .. (boys bha)
Val and Manda still arguing..
me... I'M FINE! BUT NOT WITHOUT MENDA AND RUTH!

grrrrrrrr... = ="
hope manok (christopher tan.. he looks like a chicken, that's why we call him manok) can sponsor me..hehehehee.. he promised me tat day.. promise is a promise dear MANOK! HAHA.. CANT WAIT! ^^

WORLD BEHIND MY WALL

2009-11-06T22:11:00.000-08:00

It's raining today

The blinds are shut

It's always the same

I tried all the games that

They play

But they

Made me insane

Life on TV

It's random

But means nothing to me

I'm writing down

What I cannot see

Wanna wake up in a dream

Woowoo

They're telling me

It's beautiful

I believe them

But will I ever know

The world behind my wall

Woowoo

The sun will shine

Like never before

One day I will be

Ready to go

See the world behind my wall

Trains in the sky

Are travelling

Through fragments of time

They're taking me to parts

Of my mind

That no one can find

I'm ready to fall

I'm ready to crawl

On my knees to know it all

I'm ready to heal

I'm ready to feel

Woowoo

They're telling me

It's beautifulI believe them

But will I ever know

The world behind my wall

Woowoo

The sun will shine

Like never before

One day I will be

Ready to go

See the world behind my wall (x4)

I'm ready to fall

I'm ready to crawl

On my knees to know it all

I'm ready to heal

I'm ready to feel

Take me there!

Woowoo

Take me there!

Woowoo

They're telling me

It's beautiful

I believe them

But will I ever know

The world behind my wall

DINNER!!

2009-11-06T07:53:00.000-08:00

hehe.. just came back from Dinner ..

SO DAMN HAPPY..

haha.. i dun even wear my grey or my little black dress!

i made up my mind! i wore my sis's dress.. hehe.. A LOVELY BLACK+BROWN DRESS..

hehehehehe.. ♥ it.. !

when i reached the place where i shud dinner-ing.. (haha) i tot i was the one who 'OVER-DRESS'

thnk god i'm not the ONLY ONE!

haha.. :DD

well, the dinner going well.. until I met HER! UNBELIEVABLE!

i met her when i'm on the way to the toilet.. i saw her came out from the toilet before enter the toilet..

ARGHHH!!!!

again.. UNBELIEVABLE! XDDD

my sis turned back to see her whether she's making the " ngegeh face " or the " smiling face "

UNBELIEVABLE! (again n again) haha!

i dont know what's going on after that..

coz.. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT IT! I NEED TO PEE! :D

i went to the toilet i think about.. *thinking*

oh! 3 damn times!

haha.. drink a lot of. MINERAL WATER! = ="

haha... kayyy~ this is it for this "chapter" HAHA!

I ♥ BILL KAULITZ!

2009-11-05T10:57:00.000-08:00

I ♥ BILL KAULITZ!

so damn obvious bha... grrr..

haha..

he dont even know me!

u c!

how lame I am?!

haha..

well.. like Amanda Hannah always say..

" DONT KNOW DONT CARE "

hha.. she's a TAYLOR LAUTNER BIGGEST (EVER) FAN!

haha.. I'll show you her Pic.. :))

I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM . :))))

2009-11-05T09:35:00.000-08:00

I LOVE HIM! :) he's actually a girl..

nyehh!! no! he's a BOY!

to joel who hates him so much.. HE'S NOT GAY! = ="

BILLKAULITZ.BILLKAULITZ.BILLKAULITZ.

*wink*

TOKIO HOTEL RAWKS !

haha..

TOMORROW NIGHT PLAN!

2009-11-05T09:06:00.000-08:00

erm.. my aunt bought *1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10* oh 10 tickets to a Kenyah Dinner.. i dunno the name.. i dun give a **** bout that.. :)

I DUNNO WHAT I SHOULD WEAR!!!!

a grey dress or a little black dress...
*confused*
my mom said " no need to be a 'spotlight' at the dinner tmrw night bha.. just wear casual cloths "
replied " DONT WANT!!!! "
haha... :))))

i asked my 3 BROs...
1st bro said " wear anything i want to wear.. " = ="
2nd bro said " OUH! i've forgot that the dinner is tmrw night!! " = ="
3rd bro said " owh well.. i just gonna wear a black formal shirt wif a red necktie " *wadever*

i asked my sis . she said.. " see first what i wanna wear "
WHY ARE THEY NOT NERVOUS?!

i feel so nervous! i dun wanna be 'OVER-DRESSED' in the dinner..
grrrrrrrrrrrr... (calm down Julan.. calm down.. )
I CANT!! arghh!! =D

LAUGH.OUT.LOUD

2009-11-05T08:59:00.000-08:00

OMG~
haha.. so sad to watch my bro cry like a baby earlier...
WANNA KNOW WHY?!

keep reading.. :)
HE LOVE TITANIC SO MUCH.. he says " THE FILM IS SO ROMANTIC!"
now.. he's listening to the titanic's theme song.. I CRIED ALONG TOO!

i think he's obsessed with Titanic.. :))
*emo much*
haha...

he cries when the part Jack Dawson dried because of the freeze.. o wadever the name is.. :)
and i think he love the part when Rose let Jack to draw her nude(!) body! haha.. OMG~~ my bro.. ^^

.:.ABOUT VANESSA.:.

2009-11-05T07:21:00.000-08:00

My name is Vanessa Julan.. *told u once odi rite?*

i was in my mum's womb for 9 months *duhh* until the day i came out which is on August 26, '95.. hehehehehe..

i love boys and girls..

OBSESSED WITH TOKIO HOTEL!!

i luv these colour. ~black,purple,pink,white,green.. moree!!!")

I LOVE MYSELF, MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS.. without them, I AM NOTHING!!

remember that! :)

NEW HERE BAYBEH! :)

2009-11-05T07:16:00.000-08:00

Hey all!

My name is Vanessa Julan.. can call me Julan or Vane.. :)

NEW BLOGGER!

same like Menda too.. I tought it was kinda nerdy and boring..

then.. i saw Menda's blog.. IT WAS AWESOME!! xD

hehehehe...

kayy~~ start NOW!